The opening song for our 2012 playlist is "Come, Thou Long Expected Jesus," McCracken/Webb version. One of my favorite elements of this particular rendition is the intertwining of "Come, thou long awaited Emmanuel" with "Hallelujah." The longing accompanied by rejoicing: Advent. After two straight years I couldn't imagine the beginning of an Advent playlist with any other track.
I did include it again, but in conforming to the season of Advent I buried it instead of leading with it.
You know...so I would have to wait for it.
But I wasn't waiting earlier this week. As I was still putting this year's music together, I listened to last year's opening track on repeat and stumbled over the first verse, "…let us find our rest in thee."
“Thou hast made us for thyself, O Lord, and our heart is restless until it finds its rest in thee.” ― Augustine of Hippo, The Confessions of Saint Augustine
It has been a hectic week, not least on the inside. And I have been thinking about how there is chaos and then there is Chaos. Things can be chaotic, but I bring Chaos with me: one of the kinds of restlessness I think Augustine was talking about.
Years ago, a friend of mine with young children experimented by putting earplugs in her ears for a few days. When she could only hear herself, she said better understood how much of the chaos was within. For some reason I think of that story often.
“The punishment of every disordered mind is its own disorder.” ― Augustine
I am not currently wearing earplugs, but I am one-third of the way through a "lighthouse year."As I recently told J, I mostly keep my own company; and at this point I'm getting pretty sick of myself. I am discouraged by my own sin and weakness and don't have really have distractions to speak of. As a result this Advent, more than Advents of years past, finds me lamenting more and longing in different ways. I think that's shaped my playlist more than a little bit.
Purple
|
Trevor
Borden
|
Black,
Blue
|
The
Avett Brothers
|
River
|
Indigo
Girls
|
Knocking
at Your Door
|
Bill
Malonee
|
Winter
Grace
|
Harvey
Reid
|
The
Dark Island
|
The
Kepple Family Band
|
Below
My Feet
|
Mumford
and Sons
|
Manzanitas
|
Trevor
Borden
|
Wait
For the Lord
|
Taize
|
Come,
Thou Long Expected Jesus
|
McCracken
& Webb
|
Zechariah
and the Least Expected Places
|
So
Elated
|
Gabriel's
Message
|
Sting
|
Ave
Maria
|
Frank
Sinatra
|
O Come
O Come Emmanuel
|
Trace
Bundy
|
Awake
My Soul
|
Mumford
and Sons
|
Let All
Mortal Flesh Keep Silence
|
Red
Mountain Church
|
The
Longing
|
All
Sons and Daughters
|
Christ
Be With Me
|
The
Brilliance
|
O Holy
Night
|
Trace
Bundy
|
Here it is on grooveshark and spotify, in case you want to give it a listen. Not all of the tracks are available on each, but it's close to complete (we bought or already owned rights to these).
And so here we are at Advent 11, finally with a playlist to groove to, wash dishes to and sit with or drive with. I don't know about you, but I am looking forward to Christmas…but am not ready for it, not quite yet. Most of the gifts are ready and many other tasks have been ticked off…I am grateful for the calendar space to sit a while. And long for our future. Colossians 1 is a good place for this, I think.
“You never go away from us, yet we have difficulty in returning to You. Come, Lord, stir us up and call us back. Kindle and seize us. Be our fire and our sweetness. Let us love. Let us run.”
Pictures soon! We've been a-adventuring this past month...
Thank you for this post, Holly. Thank you, thank you.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to see Black, Blue on there. Have you noticed this line from the song?: "But it's getting harder to see / and the time between daylight seems longer to me / And the person I am and the person I'll be / refuse to meet." I'm sure you have. It's a very Advent statement those brothers are making.
Love to you, where it's darkening into evening even here in California at five till five... <3
Molly! I absolutely lifted Black, Blue off of YOUR playlist, and I did it because of that very line. So thank you, very much.
DeleteI should have HT-MKR'd that track AND the Bill Mallonee. Consider it done here? Love to you from the dark (but a fire is burning).
I'm glad we're of the same mind on these things :)
DeleteI think you should take the last line of your reply and write a poem about that. Or something. It's so lovely: Love from the dark. But a fire is burning.
What I like about your lighthouse metaphor is something you may not have been thinking about, or perhaps you have. You may feel like you are solitary and alone, waiting, but your light still shines forth so brightly. Love you and miss you. You make me want to find a metaphor for my own season- something lyrical and beautiful. But I'm not sure what that would be...
ReplyDeleteTawny, I had not thought about it that way at all, and confess I don't see that end of it now. But it is a hopeful way of looking at things, even though I don't feel bright or shining. Thanks, friend.
Delete